I was woke up by a phone call today calling me with more shifts to work this month! Wh-hoooo! As much as I would love to enjoy having almost this whole week off... somehow I can't when I am laden down by the possibility that my husband is convinced he is getting laid off within the next couple months coupled with the fact that most of the shifts that I actually am already scheduled for.... I am likely to be called off or will only be allowed to work 1/4 of... sigh. Who ever thought I would be hungry for more hours at work?? The downside of living in a small healthy-ish town with a good hospital...its small, low turnover, and it takes a lot of seniority to work your way up . I can think of so many "if-only's" right now it drives me crazy, but I digress...you never realize how good you have it until its gone! The take home message...life changes in a moment, and you can only depend on its unpredictability. And I mean that in the least cynical way possible. Basically all of this is reminding me that I need to be soo grateful every day for what I have because in some way that I don't even understand right now it's allowing me to grow and learn...
Anyway! The whole reason I got the bug to blog was a song that has been on my list of favorites lately.
" I don't negotiate with insecurities, they're going to have to take a backseat. No more second guessing, no there's no more questioning, I'll be the one defining who I'm gonna be, no concealing feelings, or changing seasonally, I'm going to love myself the way I want you to love me. No more standing in my own way"
Katy Perry has spoken! Or sung..whatever. I love it.
I have so many journals lying around, but somehow they all seem untouchable. I don't want to write in any of them...maybe because they are blank and if they stay blank they have so much more possibility than if I fill them up with useless crap that I go back and read and cringe that I ever wrote it in the first place. My hesitation for writing in them stems mostly from the fact that I rarely will finish them and I hate the thought of choosing one and not being successful at it, how silly to let the fear of not finishing be what holds you back from even beginning!
Journals I would like to keep up with!
Anniversary Smash book---every anniversary there is an entry...
New Year's Journal--every new years there is an entry...
Birthday Book-- every year on your birthday there is an entry.
