It's not optional

My weekend is going to consist of sleep and work, and that's all. I'm glad that I decided to get out of bed & forcing myself to make it to the gym, instead of rolling over and going back to sleep before work. I'm sure I will be super tired tonight.. but my workout felt so much better than I expected it would. Feeling slightly disconnected from the world these days.. I don't know if its because I've got 30 days to finish prepping before Dan & I will be on a plane to Florida...but I'm anticipating the stress that I'm going to be feeling. Most would say that is just borrowing trouble...anticipating stress.. but its part of my system for preparing myself to not react badly to the stress. As much as I hate to admit it, I need to feel some element of control, otherwise I feel like my head is spinning and all I want to do is shut down. I guess today was a clear message that getting exercise more days out of the week than not, is going to be essential for the next month. I felt so much better 2 minutes after I got on the treadmill & started my run..and then moved on to the elliptical and closed it up with some light strength training. I wish I could go all out on strength training & know that I wasn't going to injure myself...but I know better... my shoulder(s) always seem to feel like they are on the tipping point ready to ache at any moment, so I'm being cautious and just doing some light stuff every other time. My goal is consistency. As much as my head tells me--hey it's okay, if you don't have time you don't need to exercise today... my sanity needs to overpower that & realize it's not optional, its a necessity.

One week

Its hard to fathom that I have 1 week left at my current job before I start a new one. I can't imagine how my life will be with all the changes that are going to happen all at once. It feels like a really big deal to be switching from working 12 hour shifts at nighttime, to working 9 hour shifts during the day time... Besides the whole time spent at work difference, I will be living in the daytime again. I don't really remember what it feels like to be a normal person. In fact I feel like I have kind of built up this kind of shell that makes me push away the day time...just so I can feel a little more normal for being nocturnal. I'm so excited, and nervous all at the same time. I'm excited to be near my baby again, and get to break in a new house that will be OURS in barely over a month. I can't imagine not knowing the people I go to work with though...that will be so strange. And not knowing what I'm doing or where I'm going, in a totally different area of the hospital.
My room is starting to look bare, and I'm liking it. In fact I'm tempted to pack up the rest of my things just so that I can enjoy how bare it is without the clutter that I will soon be living in... Its weird to think I will be getting all of my stuff back. While I've been living here, my stuff has been living in a storage unit...I don't even remember what all I have. In some ways, I just wish I could get rid of it and start over. Then again, it feels so wasteful and I'm so tired of spending crazy amounts of money. Feng shui anyone?
Should be fun. Let the good times roll.

20 days to go

Things to do in the next 20 days...

- Pack my stuff! Get rid of stuff??
- Coordinate a time when I can Uhaul my stuff alll the way down to Hood River
- Work & make some money as much as possible
- Bridal Shower & Bach Party
- Dentist Appt 25th
- Drs Appt 20th
- Hair Appt 27th?
- Somehow do SOME of the wedding stuff in between now & then??
- Eyebrow appt? 20th?
- Read up on PACU & Surgical stuff!! eek!

A new city

Another day, another change. Things are starting to roll.. and they are rolling the right direction : ). Lucky me I interviewed & I got offered the job!!! I start October 9th at the Hood River Providence Hospital in the PACU/Surgical Short stay. Dan did a bunch of searching and found the cutest little house for us! We met with the landlord and the next day he said he wanted to give it to us starting in October! How perfect is that!?  Aww, I feel so lucky. I'm so nervous that all the changes are starting to roll out now.. but this is exactly what I've wanted. I can't wait to start everything, but I can't help but be a little scared of leaving everything behind. Here's to a new chapter. Lets go!

Updated Wedding To-Dos

wowza 43 days til the day, and 39 days til we fly out. Where did the time go!? I've gotten a lot of stuff done, and actually just a few more things to finalize and then if nothing else were to be figured out, it would be okay. But being me, I do like the details because even though no one else cares & no one else will remember I have to admit I will remember them. So I'll add them to the list, and if they get done they do.. if they don't they dont. I'm trying not to be too set with things & let them go as they will.

1. CD playlist: create CDs... thanks to Krindee we pumped out CD cases with labels & ribbons and all that. So just Add music! :)
2. Create 2 Chalkboard frames: maybe... We made several prints for tables and guest book stuff, etc... I've been wanting to try to make a frame into a chalkboard though and use it somehow.
3. Cut Pinwheels--make ready to assemble once we get to florida (For centerpieces
4. Cut & fold Origami Hearts & Stamp them!
5. Find Fabric for the Aisle
6. Find 3 ties for the guys (in the right color! :) )
7. Buy Six Disposable cameras
8. Contact Eventz Inc about renting Benches... if not.. FIGURE out seating!
9. Costco for Extra Flowers: Made the order already, just need to add a few more to the order
10. Get Passport Info to Cindy R for Cruise! Wh-hoooooo!
11. Make a shopping List of things that we will have to find & get in Fort Myers: Print directions?
12. Make a List of things to assemble in florida & when they can be done (as far in advance as possible) -- i.e. Water bottles & duck tape, setup centerpieces with pinwheels, flowers, baby's breath, pictures, mason jars, setup of the ceremony site
13. Contact Florist & Ask if we can get flowers delivered earlier in the day
14. Talk to laura about photography schedule
15. Print pictures for tables....baby pix?
16. Dan's ring
17. Pick up my ring from Kay's- Its ready!
18. VOWS!!!!!!
19. Music: discuss with Lacey & Luke and assemble song list for ipod playing at reception
20. Check in with Hotel
21. Cruise packing....what else do I need??
22. I got the parents gifts, I have almost finished my other gifts..what about groomsmen gifts?
23. Finalize what I can & ship what I can to Anna!!
24. Check in with Darci about Lila's dress
25. Welcome bags...supplies & such, ask hotel if we can send 2 ahead for the parents
26. Printed the Picture favors
27. Finalized the donut cake & mini cake
28. Got hair appointments at Sanibel Beauty Salons Inc 239-472-1111 for 1030am
29. Rehearsal dinner is set for night before delivered to outdoors at West Wind Inn
30. Facial before we leave Palm Coast?
31. Find Sticks & fabric for the aisle!!!!

Fly fly away

Practicing my Pinwheel-making skills :)