It's not optional

My weekend is going to consist of sleep and work, and that's all. I'm glad that I decided to get out of bed & forcing myself to make it to the gym, instead of rolling over and going back to sleep before work. I'm sure I will be super tired tonight.. but my workout felt so much better than I expected it would. Feeling slightly disconnected from the world these days.. I don't know if its because I've got 30 days to finish prepping before Dan & I will be on a plane to Florida...but I'm anticipating the stress that I'm going to be feeling. Most would say that is just borrowing trouble...anticipating stress.. but its part of my system for preparing myself to not react badly to the stress. As much as I hate to admit it, I need to feel some element of control, otherwise I feel like my head is spinning and all I want to do is shut down. I guess today was a clear message that getting exercise more days out of the week than not, is going to be essential for the next month. I felt so much better 2 minutes after I got on the treadmill & started my run..and then moved on to the elliptical and closed it up with some light strength training. I wish I could go all out on strength training & know that I wasn't going to injure myself...but I know better... my shoulder(s) always seem to feel like they are on the tipping point ready to ache at any moment, so I'm being cautious and just doing some light stuff every other time. My goal is consistency. As much as my head tells me--hey it's okay, if you don't have time you don't need to exercise today... my sanity needs to overpower that & realize it's not optional, its a necessity.